I seriously almost had a panic attack around 3:30 at work today. All I could think about was how miserably I was going to fail at this, and if I only could do 10 minutes I think I'd be proud of myself. My heart was racing, I was sweating, and I hadn't even gotten to the gym yet! I'd done everything possible to prepare myself though physically. I'd been eating well all week and a couple hours before I had a bagel, a banana, half a cup of watered down coffee, a sports drink and was feeling great. The only thing standing in my way was me.
I slowed my pace down today to 4.4 mph, I think that helped me mentally more than anything else. I didn't even know what my legs were doing after the 5 minute mark, they just kept going. It really was all in my head. Lungs performed wonderfully today, it was a little iffy there towards the end, but it was nothing compared to Tuesday.
I almost lost it with about a minute and 30 seconds left. I looked down at my phone and saw that I was almost done and got so overjoyed I forgot to breathe....oops....But, thankfully I got it under control and finished strong!
When it was over, it took everything in me to keep from busting out some tears of joy. I really almost jumped off the treadmill to do a victory lap around the gym.
Trust me when I say, if I can do this, ANYONE can. I've got a long way to go, but I have really come a long way. In the beginning jogging for a solid minute was a struggle, and today I jogged for 20 minutes. TWENTY. I still can't believe it. Thank you to all of you out there that have encouraged me throughout the day and this whole process!
Best day ever!!!
but those who trust in the Lord
will renew their strength;
they will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary;
they will walk and not faint.
-Isaiah 40:31
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